Yesterday was the day we had our olevel chinese.
And we ARE FREE NOW! finally. so we had to celebrate.
Actually i was planning to go to the arcade, but i forgot to bring my home clothes.
And chu THEY all planned to go for dvd marathon.
Decided to go to my house.
DVD renting allowed only for 16 yrs and above.
So Dory, Jing ru and Joanna went to dvd shop near Dory's hse.
The others went to my house.
On the way, sth cropped up at chu's house.
And she went off.
THE WORST thing happened.
I am stuck with 5 guys.
And THEY are going to my house.
AND my dad is at home.
They were super noisy.
At least i think they were.
Then later Jo, Dory and Ru finally came back.
We watched Constantine which was creepy. And i didn't dare to bathe at night.
So i hurried and tried my best not to take off my glasses [i need to be clear of my surroundings!] and look in the mirror.
Today,
my mum asked me whether i was having a party ytd.
Then she went on to talk and talk and suddenly our topic was about 'some loose girls'
i dunno whether if i am thinking too much or wad. But i think she's 'shooting' me.
SERIOUSLY, DO I LOOK LIKE 'SOME LOOSE GIRLS' TO YOU?
What the hell.
See? boys bring trouble.
9:47 PM
Although i got VERY disappointing results for my Paper ONE english,
I still managed to get a 70.8 for an average, with an L1R5 of 13.
13 wasn't exactly good. but i still CAN live with it.
We cleaned up the classroom today. Did not do much cos my hands felt like they were burning when i touch the thinner. I think it's because i have sensitive skin cos other peeps have thinner spilled on their hands and only felt a cooling sensation. People like me and Joanna and jiayu have the burning sensations.
i want the old detergent back!
Wasn't thinking too much today. cos i am feeing happy. =) very HAPPY.
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You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
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i do think fashion is stupid. *nodds*
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Totally true!!
3:48 AM
But, no one bothered to think of that word.
Because no friend is ever worthy for all those work.
I am happy with such a simple word, 'friend'.
You?
Yes. It's me. Thinking too much again. Why do i think so much? i wonder if people come to this blog. But putting a tagboard is meaningless. It puts me down to know that people come just to tag and leave. I wonder who does that. Anyway, it's not that important now. The blog is mine. It should be just me and the blog in the first place.
Right from the beginning.
why would i suspect them?
I have absolutely no idea why i would feel this way. Is it just me? or them?
Maybe if i put the blame on others, i will feel better. Maybe if it's unfair to them.
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I wonder if people realise how much it affects me when they critisize me. I do not really show it,
i wonder who notices.
i wonder who will ever understand me.
One day, i will prove you wrong. And no one else will ever critisize me again.
At least i hope they don't dare to.
5:40 AM
dunno what to blog about.
Life's boring.
i suddenly remembered weitheng is SUPPOSED to lend me naruto cds.
guess why?
am listening to naruto songs. that's why.
HELL no!
the sucker is in lovveee.
At least she thinks she is.
With the shuai ges in Harry Potter movies.
Draco- Tom Felton
Harry- Daniel Radcliffe
LOL. Dan is featured in current LIME mag! I want a copy of that.
Will grab one tml.
the sucker is liking 4 people at the same time.
the sucker really is a sucker. a fickle one. =P
Whatever. Life is STILL boring.
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Learnt a new game today. blah blah blah.
Played Stress with yiting and chuchu.
LOL. i am such a lagger, but i won them!! [in some games. -.-""|]
Created a racket in PAC aka TEN because i keep screaming while playing STRESSSS.
the sucker is AA [attract attention]
BUT oh well. i can't help it..
because i am a SUCKER.
-.-""|
lame.
P.S. Chuchu is a Stinkerr. Dogs do smell. LOL.
*muahhs tom and dan and toot and toot*
That's gross.
Yeech.
2:01 AM
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YES YES YES. I am a low self-esteem biatch who is petty and competitive and has approximately one ounce[if you can actually MEASURE THEM] of social abilities.
WHATEVER.
I doubt people care.
6:44 AM
What the hell. I got accused and instead of even feeling apologetic, salt is being rubbed onto my wounds.
I am NOT stupid. SEE THAT. Get that into your head and the thing you call BRAIN. I know what i am doing and I KNOW it if you are being so DAMN sarcastic. It's OBVIOUS.
Yes. I am petty.
Yes. I am a biatch- NOT at first.
Sure, you can have your bad mood. AND remember i have MINE too.
ya ya ya. Mei Yee is such an idiot in lab stuff. YA ya YA. WHATever.
And if you think I am petty, it's best not to offend me. [basic common sense?] Speak CLEARLY and one-by-one. I only have 2 Ears and they are NOT exactly working well.
i am such a biatch. EVERYDAY.
so what?
Yes. I am mean. Because i am so FUCKING pissed off. EVERYDAY.
5:47 AM
And i am going to show them to you peeps.
But first, i realised how contradicting i sounded in my prev post and the post in which i said i wanted to lose weight.
hmmm. whatever laa. blogs are used to voice opinions. So i don't bother.
To the blogskins!
Linkin Park
Whimsical Ice-cream layout [i love this!]
Treat me like you used to. [Yilin chose the pic. Her blogskin now.]
Confidence. Lots of it. [super girly. -.-]
haha, no tag-board.
You guys can't tell me how these skins suck. =/
2:24 AM
Gosh, seriously for someone who can fit into a 24 skirt?
What is so wrong with this world?
Why do people think they are FAT that easily?
Seriously, i don't understand this 'fat' thing at all. Why can't everyone live happily without constantly talking about how fat they are?
You may think i am over sensitive, but i am quite unhappy about her saying that she's fat.
Uh,PLs. If she's fat, I am totally obese.
What's the problem with people nowadays?
Sure. Lose your fats and become all skin and bones. And continue to think that you are fat.
Gosh. This world is so corrupted.
Look, i am eating breakfast and i am gonna gain 100kg in a sec. WHATever.
This is how i feel about the whole 'fats' thing. Seriously, if she is to continue like this, everyone will be worrying about her.
Anyway, Audrey takes a million years to squeeze out some fats from her stomach and i take one second.
THIS IS THE POINT!!!
Why torture yourself?!
7:12 PM
someone stole my code for his layout and i told him that
" i don't know, but when i downloaded yours to see the code and compare it with mine,
even the spacings are the same.
erm. i think u are using my code. it's ok, but i'll appreciate it if u tell me beforehand."
BUT he denied taking my code, so i 'apologised for accusing him' and lodged a complaint against him.
Whatever. He thinks he can get away with it.
The whole format of his code is COMPLETELY the same as mine.
Even the number of div html tags are the same.
[Because i have a habit to put a lot of it]
And i didn't tell him that, because I know he will delete some of them if i tell him that.
Deny taking my codes and DIE.
Whatever. Oops. i may appear evil but be assured i am not.
At least to people who are Truthful.
toodles~
2:45 AM
suddenly i don't care much about results anymore.
what can i do already for it? nothing.
listening Endless Love [the myth theme song.. u know?]
i tink it's really sad.
http://www.sparkyblue.com/misc/radio/?autoplay=2
Click that to play the song.
Suddenly feel very down and sad.
For everything.
haha.
actually there isn't much for me to be sad about.
i think i am happy and satisfied with my life.
i hope.
1:14 AM
What happened to my tagboard? Some people asked. Isn't it obvious? I took it off.
And i stated it in my blog.
Today is a stupid day in school.
We got back our results. And i think my 'lucky number' is 68... you know the rest.
GRRRR. my humanities added up to be B4!!! wth. one MOre mark to B3.
Best was chem! WHEE~ i love chem. But it kinda stinks, cos everybody got high marks for chemistry. =/
nothing to be happy about.
Gosh I still have bio and english, yet to be taken back...
GRRRRR
L1R5 so far: 1+3+3+2+4+4 [plus another 4 if i count amath in] WAH LAO 17! This is the worst grade i've ever gotten! Damn it.
i hope my humanities get pulled up to 3 by my previous tests.
If my bio gets A2...
Best L1R5 i can get: 1+3+2+3+3+3
WHAT THE! 15????!!!!!! i am so damn screwed up. =/
DAMN AMATH! AND PHYSICS [2 more marks to A2] AND GEOGRAPHY! AND POSSIBLY ENGLISH AND BIO! I gotta JIA YOU!
I detest exams.
1:49 AM
I have this really big Pimple beside my nose [BIG With pus and all that]
And my skin feels rough.
Wonder what happened.
All in one day.
Gosh, that sucks.
And many more popped up on my cheeks and chin.
Wonder if it's because of the sea- My skin became really dry AND RED.
.. ... .. .
they are all on my face, like the dots!
It's because of Aunt Dot. what a stinker.
1:23 AM
ha! it was kinda good break since everyone came from different cliques and stuff.
We went to Parkway and walked for a while..
*gasps* i ate a durian ice cream and nuts and a pretzel!
ok. i deserve the fats entering my body.
Audrey would scream when she sees what i've eaten.
INDULGENCE stinks!
Then we went to the beach to cycle and find chuchu and -ahem- and tease them.
But we went to the wrong beach and the bus took freaking long. one hour?
We went to the one near Pasir Ris Park and Chu went to the one @ downtown.
We took One hour of bus, 15 minutes of feeder bus and minutes of swing-swinging -.-
So, i ended up pretty 'car and swing sick'
AHHHH. we should have stayed in Parkway! SOrry people!!! all my bad idea =X
5:11 PM
listening to Gundam Seed- invoke over and over and over again.
still not sick of it.
Listening to Peacemaker Kurogane - You gonna feel , Initial D- Dogfight
Hee probably add on somemore laterr.
Edited: 'Dogfight' is not there already.
EDIT: One more song for you people
(Gundam Seed) - Anna ni Isshodattanoni
5:04 PM
5:07 AM
My damn bad drawing. If some bad taste people wanna steal it, don't steal it.

4:17 AM
what's the point anyway? Grrr.
no one's tagging.
i don't really care about blogs now anyway.
and guess what? I GOT A 62 for Amath.
A B4. I am such a damn failure.
Failure in everything. basically Everything.
What does results do? They are all luck.
Some people are just borned clever.
Some people are just borned with good personality.
Some people are just borned pretty.
Born or Borned? WHATEVER.
Some people are borned with personalities people just hate.
Some people are borned digusting.
Some people are borned stupid.
Well, like me.
SEE? the world isn't FAIR.
Oh righttt. It IS a universal FACT anyway.
Some people are just PLAIN unlucky, just like me.
What's the point anyway to be borned like this?
Make the 'better' people FEEL even BETTER about themselves?
Like animals, some are born to be EATEN.
Born or borned? Pardon my bad English.
OH ya. Who cares about wat u people think about this blog.
iF u are not like me...
YOU ARE NOT WELCOMED HERE.
4:04 AM
and i finally have access to the computerr.
i tried to blog in the formal way last time. but oh well. now i'm kinda sian of blogging.
SO i am blogging in the slack way.
Yesterday went out. nothing really special happened. Just Sakura. and it kinda stinks to eat at Downtown East. Hais. OH well.
i seriously have nth to blog about.
A lot of things happened and i don't wanna blog about it.
in case i offend someone.
HEE.
so.. yepps.
BYE for now!!!!
4:42 PM
Hates all kinds of greens [i mean veggies], cheese,chilli and insects [probably not hate ants in small numbers]. Also hates the dark and horror movies.
Loves lots of things. HERSELF, Making blogskins, chatting, chocolates, tidbits, all sorts of junk food, Living, Jesus, Korean drama songs [LOL], NARUTO ANIME/MANGA
Wishes for:
Money $$
Wallet
Wedges [esp Espadrilles]
Naruto anime. [I WANT TO WATCH IT.]
DEIDARA
Lose weight!
Currently Obsessed over:
L
FYE
UCHIHA ITACHI
AKATSUKI
EVERYTHING NARUTO, TSUBASA R.C, DEATHNOTE, D.N.Angel, NANA
Deja vu shoppe
My blogskins acct
Craftster.org
DIY-ing my own totebags, clothes. yada yada.
CHUCHU
YILIN
WEITHENG
DIONE
CHRISTEN
JIAYU
SERENE
XINHUI
YITING
YUNRONG
CARIAN
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